Ok... I'll admit it. I'm angry now. I'm really angry. God only knows why I feel motivated to write at this moment.
Someone came by my house today that was very rude... very angry. That, of course, ruined my day.
I'm sort of a sponge. I love to talk to people that are happy. It cheers me up. A similar thing happens when I'm around people that are angry. I can't shut anger out. It either has to be resolved right then and there... or I get angry too.
Its a disease.
The guy that came by my house believed that his anger was justified. In truth, I knew he felt this way. He had revealed this anger to me time after time. So why was today different?
We are leaving. My wife and I are heading back to the United States. This man will be left to deal with his anger. I would like to think that I could play a role in resolving his anger. I haven't succeeded yet. It usually sounds more like an argument than a therapy session.
I can pray. Even though I know the power of prayer, it still seems like a cop out.
I have a personal relationship with this guy. Can I just walk away? Maybe I have to... I know that God is at work. I have to trust that.
If you think this problem is going to resolve itself by the end of this post, you are wrong. God will have to show me what to do in this specific instance.
But that isn't the point. This post isn't about a specific instance.
Anger ruins everything. Righteous anger is great! Don't mishear me. It is used to expose problems and create an opportunity for healing. You have to realize that only God knows if your anger is truly justified. We can play the justification game all day long. In the end... Only God knows.
Will your anger expose problems and bring healing? Will your anger just ruin someone's day and ultimately lead to nothing?
The guy that vented had no intention of finding healing. His complaints weren't aimed at me. They were aimed at someone else. I still had to stand there and listen. I either had to agree and feed the problem or disagree and create an arguement.
We argued.
We didn't get anywhere. We were both angry when he left.
Double the anger.
Have you ever been loved for no apparent reason? Let me be specific:
Have you ever been standing in line at the grocery store and had the person in front of you insist that you go first?
Have you ever been to lunch with a friend and had them pick up the check?
Have you ever had someone hold the door for you? You know the scenario... you are so thankful that you run your final steps to get inside so you can show your appreciation.
Love is infectious. So is anger.
How do you want to impact this world? You will leave a mark whether you intend to or not.
Consider the other guy when you are angry. Consider the strangers. Consider your family.
When I'm angry, I don't allow people to go ahead of me in the check out line.
When I'm angry, I don't pick up the check for my friends lunch.
When I'm angry, I don't hold the door for anyone.
Anger steals joy. It steals the desire to spread joy. It steals the happiness of those that would have otherwise been blessed.
I'm less angry now. Writing is therapeutic.
I'm going to look for an opportunity to bless someone else. I'm going to try harder than usual. I'm going to see to it that someone smiles because of me.
Ultimately, this person will smile because someone else was angry.
Won't that be a fun way to break the cycle?
"Love wins." - Rob Bell